This morning was shitty. Really shitty. I knew yesterday Romeo would leave us this weekend, and I knew he needed to go. And, he did. A year ago I prepared myself (so I thought) to lose him, and he hung in there. He helped us through Christmas. He loved the girls while I was away. He waited. He waited so long.
This morning I talked to the ghost of my brother and asked him to come get Romeo. He’d been here for eight years, loving us, being giving us his all. Being the most amazing hound ever. It was time.
But I still wasn’t ready.
It’s not about me. It’s about a dog who gave us everything. When he came to us I had a long chat to him and I said, “You are here to be loved. It is my job to keep you safe, it is your job to have fun. I’m in charge, you will always be safe.”
And he was.
No matter what. Romeo was safe and loved and protected.
That was my job.
Our walks, when he was well, brought me absolute joy. He was always on the same page as me, knew exactly what I wanted when I wanted it. Romeo was spectacular. And I’ve always had great dogs. But he was special. So special.
He knew what the kids needed and provided it immediately. He heard, he listened, he understood beyond the words. He loved us with his whole heart. Always.
I am my own worst enemy sometimes, I really am.I’ve been trying to come up with a project to keep me busy and take my mind off being home and how much I miss #MyKnight.
Having just finished a novel, is a weird headspace anyway without adding time differences and being back home. Yes, I have another book to write – but I need something that takes me out of my head, and writing keeps me locked in my head. (If you’re a writer you’ll understand what I mean.)
Been trying to keep myself busy now that Cryptobyte is waiting for editing and I’ve sent all the info and template to #daughter3 for the cover! [I need to slow the hell down.]
So I thought I’d reformat a couple of books for print. Thinking it might take me at least a few days to get them ready. Especially one that I completely revamped.
Readers, it did not. It barely took me a day. Now they’re both with the printer and I’m waiting for proofs. Also, I’m the worlds worst at waiting. Have almost finished binge watching all five seasons of Hot in Cleveland and it’s been great. Laugh out loud great. [I’ve only been home a week! I need to slow this shit down!] And there is only so much tequila I can drink before I run out of tequila. 🙂
I left Perth a week ago – it’s been a busy week. Got to spend time with my youngest son while he was over from Sydney. That was a great distraction. Cryptobyte is now ready for editing. I heard back from my new beta readers and dealt with the raised points and enjoyed the fabulous feedback.
I just finished reformatting Databyte for kindle. It should be live soonish. Pain in the arse job but it’s done. Started the reformatting of Soundbyte but have given up for the moment. I’m going to have to strip the file and start again, and I’m not in the mood.
Not sure what I’m going to do now. I need something to look forward to because if there’s nothing on the horizon I tend to lose the fucking plot. So far this year it’s been busy. I was getting things organized for the Qubyte launch for the first 3 months of the year – there was a lot to make and do, plus I was leaving a few days later. So, that kept me occupied. And I had Cryptobyte to finish and beta readers to find and whatnot. Busy Busy.
At the moment I’m looking at a great big void and wondering how to fill it until the countdown to My Knight arriving happens – and that won’t be for awhile.
I’m not planning on releasing book 11 until December, so, that’s a little far into the future for me to worry about. I’ve not even started talking cover details with my cover designer (aka daughter #3).
Book 12 is underway but I need something on top of that. Something less isolating! Also something fun, creative, and productive.
Bit strange being on my own this morning. Only one us should have to be at work by 7am and that one is not me. 🙂 And then I realized that this time next week I’ll be home. Back in the cold. 😦 Talk about a sucky realization. So, I’m cheering myself up knowing I have an entire week left with my Knight and that Joshy (youngest son) will be home for a holiday not long after I am. Also, I cleverly planned a tequila night with my tribe for the Saturday as a distraction. But wait there’s more … I have a slow-cooker waiting for me at home, and as I haven’t cooked for a glorious fucking month (bliss!!) I’m actually looking forward to using it. This has been a creatively productive holiday with the completion of #cryptobyte to the point where I’m fairly happy and it’s out with beta readers for the second time. I’ve begun the next book. (We’ll talk more about that at some stage.) Got some other bits and pieces done for Cryptobyte as well. Ready to talk covers with my cover designer.
“Truck hijackings, missing families, stolen chemicals, distinctive photographs, cryptic text messages, and a friend with a curious dilemma.
Life is never straightforward for FBI Special Agent Ellie Iverson and the Delta teams. Juggling twin toddlers and a new position as Special Agent in Charge of Delta, Ellie answers a request for help from a Missouri Police Officer which calls into play her extraordinary skill set and arrant determination to find the truth and protect the vulnerable.”
Or daughter, whatever. 🙂 So, what’s new? Well, Qubyte is now available from http://www.writersplot.org.nz as a paperback. The launch was fun and occurred at Upper Hutt Central Library on March 22nd. If you were there, thank you for coming if not you can view the video on my Facebook page just search for @cat.connor. There are a couple of signed books available from Writers Plot – the rest are unsigned but I’m happy to sign yours when I’m back from my trip.
That’s right, if you’ve been paying attention on Facebook then you’ll know I’m not in New Zealand at the moment.
I am having a marvelous time with My Knight in Western Australia.
Other news? Cryptobyte is back with notes from my beta readers. So, that’s a step closer to a release date! Next it will fly off to my glorious editor. Was an icky story to write but not too icky as long as I didn’t dwell on it. You’ll see.
Other other news? I started writing the 12th byte. Don’t get too giggly to quick, its completion is a long way off. Not even sure what it’s about yet. It starts with an IED. So, you know, it has promise.
Meanwhile … I have coffee to drink and somewhere to be. 🙂 Take care out there.
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