What am I waiting for?

Floundering a bit at the moment. Turns out I’m not 100% convinced that I know what I’m going to do next. It’s quite a weird feeling after years of knowing exactly what the next step was – listen to Ellie and write, rinse and repeat.

Now it’s wide open and could be anything and I don’t know what I want it to be.
Despite knowing I should finish the kiwi spy story, I don’t know what I WANT to do next. I like Crockett and the crew, they have potential, they’ll be fun to work with but it’s not doing it for me which is probably why I chose to stop writing until I launch Vaporbyte … that I could just stop when I never have before speaks loudly.

Nothing is firing me up at the moment.
Could be a bit of “Why bother?” going on as well.
Maybe there is fear lurking in the shadows … big changes stir things up and it’s not always what you want stirred up.
Would be easy to blame it on 2020, and to be fair, some of this funk will be because My Knight and I separated due to COVID (9 months and counting), so that definitely doesn’t help … but it’s not 2020’s fault that I don’t know what I really want to do next.
That’s all me.

The why bother thing is ringing a bit in my head.

Why I write ..
1. To entertain myself
2. To entertain the five other people who like my work (thank you)
3. ??
4. Just give me a reason.
5. Dunno
6. So pirates have something to steal?
7. No clue, but it sure as hell isn’t about money because there is none – see 6.

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